February 2012
6 posts
January 2012
1 post
December 2011
3 posts
to do
i have made up my mind about a few things:
1. i am moving to london after graduation
2. i am backpacking south america next summer
3. experience is the key to knowing what i really want…so i am going to do some cool shit
4. you aren’t worth my time or energy and there is someone who wants me more
5. i can do this
letters
If you ask me how I’m doin I would say I’m doin just fine I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two and finally I’m forced to face the truth No matter what they say
I’m not over you
November 2011
8 posts
i hope you’re happy.
music therapy
all you are is mean
and a liar and pathetic and alone in life
and mean.
“being single doesn’t mean you’re weak. it means you are strong...”
October 2011
7 posts
“sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much...”
magic
i wish i had an escape.
i wish i had the courage to say no.
i wish i could sleep without dreaming of you.
i wish i could call you.
i wish i could find someone new.
i wish i could ignore the world and take time for myself.
i wish i could scream.
i wish i knew what to say.
the battle in my brain
for the most part, i feel that this has become a place where i can expose what i don’t feel like talking about to others. it is a jumble of unspoken thoughts that i wish i wasn’t thinking.
i want to be able to cut the strings that attach me to the negative parts in my life, but it scares me to have things finalized. i have never struggled more to delete a number from my phone or...
autumn rain
tears coming streaming down your face
when you lose something you can’t replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
September 2011
8 posts
12:11
I make mistakes sometimes. I hate the feeling that sits with me when I think about what I did wrong.
“Never regret anything. Because at one point, it was all you ever wanted.” I wish this wasn’t so true.
all ears
i’ve been trying this new thing called listening. i am known to be a talker and changing up my game for a bit will be interesting.
August 2011
4 posts
a yellow house
although i have been living in my new house for 2 months now, i am just now getting around to thinking about decorating. the roomies are moved in and now it is time to make it feel like home. i love crafting…even though with the start of school it seems impossible to think i will have time to do anything other than go to class, do homework, go to meetings, and sleep. but that portland girl...
I am defeated. I am exhausted. And I just don’t want to.
July 2011
2 posts
You know, it’s nothing new Bad news never had good timing Then, circle of your friends Will defend the silver lining
June 2011
2 posts
salty water
I never cry. Really. It is extremely rare. I’m not sure why, but I think it stems from the thought that I would be seen as weak if my true emotions showed. I cried when my grandpa died. I cried every time my dad ever told us we were moving. I cried at Up and Finding Neverland. I cry when I hear an incredible song. But I never let tears stream from my eyes, especially in public.
Last Friday...
May 2011
3 posts
inbox (154)
Props to people in life who have little to no emotional extremes that affect them. People who wake up in the morning, have the same breakfast, go through the same steps at work, eat the left overs from the night before and are in bed by 9pm. I don’t know how it is possible to live the same day twice.
I say this because I can’t sit still these days. I understand that I am excited to...
“and i find i am divided between here and there
and them and you and me
and i...”
April 2011
2 posts
milk
it has been a long time since i have written anything. it feels good to be typing again. today has been one of those days that just knocks it out of you whether you were ready for it or not. here are the ups and downs:
i booked a flight to europe with my roommate for 3 weeks.
my cold caused me a significant amount of awkward coughing attacks and loud nose blowing in class.
i ate a ton at spring...
March 2011
6 posts
float.
My show opened yesterday. It is such a surreal feeling to be done with something you have been working towards for 3 years. But its over.
The name of our show was Float. Although it began as an inside joke, it evolved into something much more than that. I have strings attached to that word now…no balloon pun intended. I have put more time, work, and tears into this show than...
